to be honest or not to be?
okay, so.... hai.
there's no point in this post, really. just another post so that i could update my blog and still be in the groove of writing. :) anyway, lately i have been feeling really shitty. like i'm an asshole shitty, but only on a female version of it. i don't know why, maybe it's pms, maybe it's just me being moody, maybe because i don't like people lying to me in any way at all like rihanna does. lols, okay so that was a joke, but it's true. in many ways. hee.
so yesterday, i think, a friend of mine asked an advice from me and to publicly post it on her facebook status, and when i did, she told me not to say whatever i said because i posted the sentence "tell the whole facebook about it" but still, when she posted the status, it was pretty obvious she was posting it to the whole facebook and the whole world. i'm not upset or anything. okay, i guess i'm quite upset, cause it meant that i had to rephrase it and yeah. she's acting like she's all happy and shit when really what she posted on her status meant everything contradictory to the way she was acting. aaand, i was pretty straightforward about my advice, but still she was like, "okay, don't say it that way cause it's gonna hurt his/her feelings" when actually her status meant it in a very pretty obvious way that it was for whoever it is she intended the someone to realize. i hope that made sense, my head's getting a little dizzy right now.
aaanyway, the next thing i said is that i was sleepy and i was going to bed and then logged out of facebook. it was pretty mean, but she shouldn't say that you know?
see, her point of posting the status was to make someone realize of the mistake. and when i had given my advice about, dis-included the word "the whole facebook" just because she requested it and replied her, as in given another advice in a straightforward manner to that someone, she acted totally happy about it. "i don't intend this to anyone, blablabla". it's upsetting you know? if you want to let him/her know, just be god-forsaken honest with it! not make someone else the victim. i felt so bad about it cause today she asked me if i was mad at her and i said i wasn't because i wans't mad at her, directly. i was mad at the someone because that someone is a family to my ex boyfriend, who both of them have very similar personalities. i can't be totally honest with this friend of mine because she's happy with this someone and i don't know if this someone has changed for the better or not, but i'm still wary, you know? i'm pretty scared that my friend would get hurt the way i did, and it's just fuck! you know?
sorry for the language, but i'm not exactly happy and nice right now. :S
so anyway, if my friend reads this, sorry for being extremely rude last night. sorry for not being straight-forwardly honest with you, but i've boldly spoke my mind to you about it, taking my chances that you'd get hurt when you hear it, but you chose not to take my advice, which is not wrong, totally, but yeah... my point is, you have my support all the way. okay? :)
and now that i feel a whole lot better... i'm sorry to my cousin for being such a shitty girl to him last night. sorry i kept you up and left you like that, i mean, my mood just went out the door because of what happened with my friend, and i wasn't honest with you about it, and i was rude to you too. and yeah...
i'm sorry, guys. xoxo
there's no point in this post, really. just another post so that i could update my blog and still be in the groove of writing. :) anyway, lately i have been feeling really shitty. like i'm an asshole shitty, but only on a female version of it. i don't know why, maybe it's pms, maybe it's just me being moody, maybe because i don't like people lying to me in any way at all like rihanna does. lols, okay so that was a joke, but it's true. in many ways. hee.
so yesterday, i think, a friend of mine asked an advice from me and to publicly post it on her facebook status, and when i did, she told me not to say whatever i said because i posted the sentence "tell the whole facebook about it" but still, when she posted the status, it was pretty obvious she was posting it to the whole facebook and the whole world. i'm not upset or anything. okay, i guess i'm quite upset, cause it meant that i had to rephrase it and yeah. she's acting like she's all happy and shit when really what she posted on her status meant everything contradictory to the way she was acting. aaand, i was pretty straightforward about my advice, but still she was like, "okay, don't say it that way cause it's gonna hurt his/her feelings" when actually her status meant it in a very pretty obvious way that it was for whoever it is she intended the someone to realize. i hope that made sense, my head's getting a little dizzy right now.
aaanyway, the next thing i said is that i was sleepy and i was going to bed and then logged out of facebook. it was pretty mean, but she shouldn't say that you know?
see, her point of posting the status was to make someone realize of the mistake. and when i had given my advice about, dis-included the word "the whole facebook" just because she requested it and replied her, as in given another advice in a straightforward manner to that someone, she acted totally happy about it. "i don't intend this to anyone, blablabla". it's upsetting you know? if you want to let him/her know, just be god-forsaken honest with it! not make someone else the victim. i felt so bad about it cause today she asked me if i was mad at her and i said i wasn't because i wans't mad at her, directly. i was mad at the someone because that someone is a family to my ex boyfriend, who both of them have very similar personalities. i can't be totally honest with this friend of mine because she's happy with this someone and i don't know if this someone has changed for the better or not, but i'm still wary, you know? i'm pretty scared that my friend would get hurt the way i did, and it's just fuck! you know?
sorry for the language, but i'm not exactly happy and nice right now. :S
so anyway, if my friend reads this, sorry for being extremely rude last night. sorry for not being straight-forwardly honest with you, but i've boldly spoke my mind to you about it, taking my chances that you'd get hurt when you hear it, but you chose not to take my advice, which is not wrong, totally, but yeah... my point is, you have my support all the way. okay? :)
and now that i feel a whole lot better... i'm sorry to my cousin for being such a shitty girl to him last night. sorry i kept you up and left you like that, i mean, my mood just went out the door because of what happened with my friend, and i wasn't honest with you about it, and i was rude to you too. and yeah...
i'm sorry, guys. xoxo
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