there are times when you realize something
it's been a long time honestly, and i've come to terms that i do - forgive me - suck at blogging. i mean, blogging is a full time commitment, and if you can't commit to a simple thing as that, how can you commit to other things in life, like, for example, a relationship? sure, i've commited myself to be the uh, if not most annoying sister in the world, i would be the most insubordinate child ever existed. and if i could commit, i would for only very briefs of a moment in time. most of the time i spent was watching movies and wasting my time watching the clouds go by as i TRY as hard as i could to draw up the scenery in front of me while eating hot dog and having my mocha bubble tea.
now i hate myself for not being able to commit fully, especially i could never pay attention to what i'm writing or doing more than just five minutes. no wonder i'm such a bad writer. i never progress! and all that big talk about publishing AT LEAST one book during my whole entire life. big sigh.
anyway, i gave my old blogs a visit just now, so that i could copy back my stories i've posted a looooong time ago, back before the ice age and i realize that i do have a thing for writing, just that i tend to get distracted after a few sentences and run off the topic like a complete buffoon, as you all may have realized.
i do wish i was my old self again, things were much simpler then. the only thing i'd have to worry about was passing chemistry and algebra. not about some stupid boy who ruined my entire love life, or whether i could fit in or not. because i did fit in before, with iman and nicole and rachel and sonia. i could've cared less about what other people thought about me. but now, things in college are much more complicated than it seems. and here i was thinking how cool it would be to study something that you like blabla.
what, i'm sooo naive to have felt for that, huh?
well hey, life is not all that bad. i mean, there are moments in time when i wasn't trying to flaunt my thing in front of everybody, trying to compete with my 'friends' on who's better at whatever, it dawned to me that life offered much more than that. life offered peace and kindness for mankind, where all creatures, no matter what the issue is, can live together in prosperity. yes, i know i sound like a lame-cheesy fiction novel, but hey! it's the truth. even if nothing lasts forever, the feeling of it will continue, am i right? it wouldn't be lost, cause there will always be a small debris of hope lingering around.
and now i'm blubbering like a fool, but who cares! what i've been meaning to say is that, life's all that we have. so make the best out of it. :)
now i hate myself for not being able to commit fully, especially i could never pay attention to what i'm writing or doing more than just five minutes. no wonder i'm such a bad writer. i never progress! and all that big talk about publishing AT LEAST one book during my whole entire life. big sigh.
anyway, i gave my old blogs a visit just now, so that i could copy back my stories i've posted a looooong time ago, back before the ice age and i realize that i do have a thing for writing, just that i tend to get distracted after a few sentences and run off the topic like a complete buffoon, as you all may have realized.
i do wish i was my old self again, things were much simpler then. the only thing i'd have to worry about was passing chemistry and algebra. not about some stupid boy who ruined my entire love life, or whether i could fit in or not. because i did fit in before, with iman and nicole and rachel and sonia. i could've cared less about what other people thought about me. but now, things in college are much more complicated than it seems. and here i was thinking how cool it would be to study something that you like blabla.
what, i'm sooo naive to have felt for that, huh?
well hey, life is not all that bad. i mean, there are moments in time when i wasn't trying to flaunt my thing in front of everybody, trying to compete with my 'friends' on who's better at whatever, it dawned to me that life offered much more than that. life offered peace and kindness for mankind, where all creatures, no matter what the issue is, can live together in prosperity. yes, i know i sound like a lame-cheesy fiction novel, but hey! it's the truth. even if nothing lasts forever, the feeling of it will continue, am i right? it wouldn't be lost, cause there will always be a small debris of hope lingering around.
and now i'm blubbering like a fool, but who cares! what i've been meaning to say is that, life's all that we have. so make the best out of it. :)
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